(re-post from Mark's journal)
I've somehow recently forgotten how incredible your love is, how much you desire intimacy with me...
I asked God for a passage that would break through to me. I opened to Nehemiah 9.
--Despite the Israelites' many betrayals you were "a God ready to forgive, gracious and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love, and did not forsake them."
I can give into sin and reject you, and you would still bless me and welcome me whenever I returned to you. But I'M NOT OKAY WITH THAT LIFE. I want everyday to be a day obsessed with you. I want to recognize every blessing and the powerful love behind it.
I want to really, really, love you. God, open my eyes. Let me see the reason behind the sunset that looks just amazing to me. Nothing I do is worth it if it wasn't done in love with you.